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You broke me down
So I could build myself up.
You didn’t love me
So I could learn to love myself.
You treated me like I was disposable
So I could see what I don’t want
in a relationship.

I know now it wasn’t my worth.
I know now it wasn’t my inadequacy.
I know now it wasn’t because I’m unloveable.
I know now it had nothing to do with me.

You didn’t let me love you
Because you don’t know how to love.
You didn’t let me love you
Because you thought you
didn’t deserve it.
You didn’t let me love you
Because you hate yourself.

Thank you for every lie.
Thank you for every infidelity.
Thank you for every empty promise.
Thank you for every stab in my heart.

You’ve made me one of
the strongest people I know of
Because I survived you.

Thank you for leaving
And not coming back this time.
It was the most loving thing
You have ever done for me.

"

- Me (via assid-rain-drops)

"

I made a promise to myself, that I would no longer live as a broken person. I made a choice to fight every single day for more —- more joy, more peace, more hope, more love, and more good.

I decided that trying is better than spending the rest of my life on this earth being miserable and lonely in my skin. I decided that I am worthy of love, community, healing, and freedom. I decided that hating myself is wrong and cruel and defeating. I don’t want my soul to be filled with hate and sorrow anymore. I want to try day by day to fill it with love, with joy, with hope, and with dreams. This is the only story I get to live out, and I don’t want even one more page to be filled with darkness.

I am going to keep this promise. I’m going to fight for restoration and liberation. I am going to take it a day at a time and try to put the pieces of myself into a better shape. I’m going to reach out to my family and my friends when I am feeling weak and let them support me. I am going to ask for help when I am stumbling, when I am scared, and when I am lost. I am going to allow people to love me, be there for me, and speak life into me.

My past will no longer be my prison. I will no longer be held captive by the wounds inflicted on me. I will love myself more for the trauma I have been through. I will be gentle with myself through the process of healing I am going through. I will remember the truth; I am precious, lovely, powerful, brave, and loved. I am not trash. I am not shameful. I am not stupid. I am not ugly. I am not worthless. I am not hopeless. I am mending and growing into a whole person. It is beautiful and it is painful, but I know I am being remade and redeemed. I promise to come alive in my story. I promise to take each day I am given as an opportunity to learn, to love, to help, and to grow.

It’s a promise I will not break because my life is at stake. Some days are easier than others, but regardless of the highs and lows I keep going. I keep fighting. I keep believing. I keep facing my demons and vanquishing my ghosts. I keep choosing life because I decided I deserve more than brokenness, shame, misery, and pain.

You deserve to live. Your story is still being written in each new day. You are a precious human being and today you can make the choice to live as one. You can decide that you will fight the chaos in your mind, and choose to let people help you. You can choice hope. You can choose love.

You don’t have to live as a broken person anymore. That was never who you were meant to be. You are and have always been a beloved, beautiful, precious, and meaningful person.

Promise me that you’ll live that truth out going forward.

"

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With love,

Dele Olanubi

(via aprayerfortoday)
livelaughlove17-11:

uh on We Heart It.

"Pain is a pesky part of being human, I’ve learned it feels like a stab wound to the heart, something I wish we could all do without, in our lives here. Pain is a sudden hurt that can’t be escaped. But then I have also learned that because of pain, I can feel the beauty, tenderness, and freedom of healing. Pain feels like a fast stab wound to the heart. But then healing feels like the wind against your face when you are spreading your wings and flying through the air! We may not have wings growing out of our backs, but healing is the closest thing that will give us that wind against our faces."

- C. JoyBell C. (via kushandwizdom)
Can y’all tell I’m bored 😩 . last upload of the day….I think. 😂😩
"The Cuban" and their Greek pasta salad from Garden Bistro. Tried something new for lunch w/ @_ashbashhh yesterday. It was soo good 😍 (at Garden Bistro)
youngblackandvegan:

eternallybeautifullyblack:

Black motherhood is a beautiful, beautiful thing!  I love this photograph!
Image via Orijin Culture.
Photography by Saddi Khali.

glory

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